by Nicola Haken
I’ve done it. I’ve stuck a whopping two fingers up at my parents, I’ve made a name for myself as one of the world’s biggest porn stars and I’ve finally found a family I belong in.
Life is amazing. I get paid to do all my favourite things. Fuck. Party. Travel the world. What’s not to love?
And then he comes along. Mason George – Back Door Studio’s newest exclusive model and the guy who has the potential to either fuck it all up, or take me on the best ride of my life.
I’m desperate. I’ve got nothing and nobody left. Entering the daunting world of adult entertainment is less of a dream and more of a necessity. Signing as Back Door Studio’s latest model has the ability to either ruin or make me, but I made a vow at my first audition never to let myself regret it.
I continue to question myself each day, but no amount of what’s, why’s or what ifs will change where I am or where I’m heading. Am I strong enough to do this? To embrace it? To enjoy it? I have no idea.
The only thing I’m certain of, is that if anyone can teach me who I’m supposed to be, it’s Ryder Richardson.
“Because the most exciting things in life always happen via the back door”
“You know when I first met you at your audition, I wondered what the hell you were doing there. You were so mellow, so uneasy. A strong part of me wanted to fuck you senseless. Show you what this business was all about. Show you what I was about. I thought if anyone could bring you out of yourself it would be me. But then when you started talking I saw you had a reason. I can’t explain it properly. The way you looked at Ivan, like you needed it. I knew then there was more to you than a horny guy looking to make a quick buck and I instantly craved to know more.”
“Is that why you offered your place to me?” I asked curiously.
“Partly, I guess,” Ryder shrugged. “But also because I’m not a complete heartless bastard and it was obvious to a freaking blind man you had no place to go.”
“I was so embarrassed when you asked me. I’ve never wanted pity from anyone.”
“I didn’t pity you. If I’m honest, I was kinda hoping I’d still get to fuck you.”
“Ha!” I laughed, tipping my head back. “So that was your sneaky little plan all along, huh?”
“It worked didn’t it?” Ryder winked at me and patted my knee. His touch immediately stopped me in my tracks as it reverberated throughout my body, straight into my soul.
“I really care about you, Ryder,” I blurted out involuntarily. His eyes widened just a little before he let out a long, loud sigh.
“I care about you too, tiger,” he said with a soft, genuine smile. “You know I don’t know anything about love, that the whole concept scares the absolute shit out of me, but I do know that if I was capable of love, I would love you.”
Author of the New Adult/Contemporary novels Missing Pieces, Saving Amy and the Take My Hand series, and m/m erotic romance Souls of the Knight series.
... I moonlight as the Pink Power Ranger ;-)
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